Small Beginning, But Lasting Power

This week I was blessed to interview some Spanish ladies who live in the central coast of California. They shared with me the story of their intercession and praying for California, which led to the visit of Gershom to their town. I am amazed at how patient and small the beginning of this great revival was. I am a millionaire as a result of the Scripture that says, “Despise not the day of small things.”

Now the churches in the central coast area around Santa Maria are experiencing phenomenal church growth ~ and much of this is happening because of intercession of these ladies.  Their prayerful open-ended requests brought Gershom Sikaala from Zambia, Africa to California ~ and to the Maranda Ranch for seven days of God’s glory.

A phenomenon that stuns me is that I realized that the seven nights of glory were actually physically small events, and by all fleshly standards through the eyes of a critic, not much happened.  By this I mean, I talked to critics about the incident and to them it was almost a non-event.  Of course they admitted it happened, but they would not concede to its impact.  But then I talked to the Spanish ladies, their relatives, and their friends…

Suddenly I discovered that under the spiritual structure of Santa Maria there was a granite-solid volcano of revival pushing to the surface of every church in the region.  The seeds that were planted in the hearts of Californians by Gershom were unstoppable. And some were so powerful that they are already affecting nations outside of the U.S!

I have seen the same phenomenon happen in the ministry of Timothy Snodgrass. Because the words he has prophesied have truly been words from God, they have not “returned again void.”  We are seeing a rare phenomenon that I believe is going to explode at Disneyland on  October 27.  Don’t miss that special day at the Disney Grand Hotel!

By gazowsky

The Secret To Starting Your Day

I’ve noticed that sometimes when I wake up in the morning my mind is in a dark place. It reminds me of the famous words of Moses where he said, “I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life.” It’s in that waking moment when I’m laying in bed, still mentally coming out of my state of sleeping, that I make my first choice of what I’m going to think about. It’s at this critical time that I need to stop and choose my thought patterns ~ are they life or death, blessing or cursing?
For years I never thought much about the morning time. I just climbed out of bed and whatever came before me was the way my day went. I didn’t understand that I had a choice on how my day would turn out. Instead, I acted as if it was a random occurrence in my life. But with age comes wisdom, and I began to realize that I can actually determine how successful my day will be by determining how I begin the morning and learning to start it out right with blessing. All this really changed in my own personal experience when the Lord called me to start praying at 4 a.m. in the morning.
For 14 years I woke up every day and went to a special place of prayer. This developed a habit of prayer in my life, and it also taught me how important the morning was to start every day properly.  But it was just the beginning of the lesson. I found that much of my morning wake up time was becoming ritualistic and was not an actual relationship with God Himself. It was more of a cadence that led to repetition, which obviously is very boring when it comes to the relationship with a person ~ especially when that person is God.
One day the Lord interrupted my daily ritual and told me to stop praying in the morning. At first I was lost as to what I should do. But I quickly discovered that He wanted me to talk to Him throughout the day. I realized that “praying without ceasing” was the goal God wanted for me ~ to be in constant day-long communion with Him. It was at this point of seeking His presence that I began to see how vital the first few moments of waking were in my daily life.
At first I was confused. I would ask myself, “Why am I thinking such horribly, worrisome thoughts when I wake up?” I conferred with some ministers and prophet friends of mine about this issue.  They shared with me how crucial it was to realize that our flesh has evil pre-programmed into it, and if we’re not careful it can just take over. It is important at the very start of the day to physically gird up the loins of your mind and get your thoughts thinking down the right pathway.
Again, as Moses instructed, set your thoughts on life and not on death. But like most people, you might think, ‘Well, it’s important that I look at both sides of the picture. That’s the biggest mistake you could ever make. Only Satan wants you to think at all about death. Jesus brings you nothing but life. That means any choice you make to think negative, cursing thoughts is bringing you toward death. You must make a choice from your waking moments of the day to think all day long only about life.
I am telling you, since I’ve started doing this every day gets better and better. No wonder the Lord said in Isaiah, “Of the increase of His government and peace there shall be no end.” When you get in the flow of life and the daily way of thinking God intended, you will find that every day you will “rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory.” This is truly the way to live, this is the way to start a day ~ this is the way to wake up.
By gazowsky

Removing Disturbances From Seeing God

I was praying this week at Big Bear Lake, which is located at the top of a high mountain. John Holborn had shared with me at a conference some interesting information concerning light in our galaxy.  The largest solar telescope in the world is situated on the top of Big Bear Mountain.  It was constructed in the center of the lake because there are fewer disturbances in the air and it allows scientists to observe the sun with a minimum of atmospheric disruptions.

The next day the Lord spoke to me to go and pray near the observatory and listen to what the Lord was revealing about handling disruptions.  After a period of enjoying God’s presence while observing the beautiful telescope surrounded by the ice-cold waters of Big Bear Lake, I understood the reason scientists chose this 7000-foot-high lake.  It was so the frigid waters would not reflect heat waves into the air that would disrupt the telescope’s ability to observe the brightness of the sun.

I’m sure you get the picture.  Here is this massive telescope looking directly at our nearest star, the sun, which is so bright that the temperature is nearly 80 degrees on top of a 7000-foot mountain!  I instantly saw the message that God was telling me.  When you are under the light of God’s favor, presence, and blessing, there are so many good things that are happening to you that if you’re not careful your life will become disrupted and you will no longer see the wonderful light and glory of God.

The next day God gave me two dreams that were very disturbing.  In the first dream I pulled up to the luxurious mansion of a famous political celebrity.  Instead of finding him in the house, I located him at a beach where his friends were throwing diamonds and jewels at him like they were baseballs.  They were watching him jump around in the sand to catch them like a little boy playing a game (by the way, the politician was 70 years old). He was obviously under their total control as they made him jump around looking silly. The dream was so unsettling that I woke up and walked around the house praying ~ but I could not figure out what it meant.

I finally went back to sleep and entered into another dream.  This time I was walking down the street and I found myself next to a very famous and popular movie star who is known in the industry for being very wealthy. As I talked to the star I felt that he had a personal meeting and he was going to say something more about it.  Then suddenly he stopped and said, “No, I’ve got a source of supply.”  He then asked me to come with him and he would introduce me to the people that supplied him with his wealth. I soon found myself in a very expensive vehicle riding alongside the star.

Suddenly the star asked the man driving the vehicle for $700.  In my dream I was surprised, because to an actor of his caliber it seemed like such a small of a sum of money.  I thought, “Well I could’ve given him that much money if he would’ve just asked.”  But the star was ignoring me and was totally focused on trying to get the money from the driver (and the man next to him) who were his source of supply. As the star grabbed desperately for the $200 they finally offered him, they suddenly kicked him physically out of the vehicle!  The money flew into the air and they grabbed it, as the star was left on the highway crawling like a beggar asking for anything he could get. The dream was so upsetting I immediately woke up.

I went to pray because of the two disturbing dreams and I asked the Lord for a Scripture to explain what He was trying to tell me. The Lord instantly gave me Luke 7:31-35 ~ “And the Lord said, ‘Whereunto then shall I liken the men of this generation? And to what are they like? They are like unto children sitting in the marketplace, and calling one to another, and saying, “We have piped unto you, and ye have not danced; we have mourned to you, and ye have not wept.” For John the Baptist came neither eating bread nor drinking wine; and ye say, “He hath a devil.” The Son of man is come eating and drinking; and ye say, “Behold a gluttonous man, and a winebibber, a friend of publicans and sinners!” But wisdom is justified of all her children.'”

Here is the message the Lord gave to me as a result of a series of messages. If you remember, a few weeks ago the Lord spoke to me about the shadow of celebrity that comes from God’s light shining upon your life. It brings you the shadow of wealth, fame, and power.  As people around you begin to observe your newfound blessings, they will suddenly say to you, “We have piped unto you and you have not danced.” Another way to put it is, that through their criticism or advice they will try to control you about how you use the wealth of God ~ even to the point of making you believe that they are the source of your wealth and not God Himself!

In both my dreams the people who were controlling the celebrities were their so-called friends or money managers. But they had turned the celebrity into a childish beggar because of their puppet strings of control. The message that the Lord was giving me was very simple: Do not let money, and the strings that result, control your focus on the glory of God. I must remove every disturbance that in any way causes me to not see God clearly.

I believe this is a message for all of us because great blessings are coming to you from God and many people you know, and have been friends with, will try to pipe and make you dance ~ mourn and make you cry. Do not pay heed to these disturbances, but listen only to the Lord, “For man should not live by bread alone but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.”

With His own mouth Jesus said that they called Him a gluttonous man because He had money and partied with it.  He then contrasted Himself with John the Baptist, who was extremely financially self-denying. If you remember, John lived on a diet of locusts and wild honey (I mean, how more sacrificial can you get?) Yet the people called Christ a devil.  In each case they were trying to control the man of God by criticism and advice. Then Jesus gave the real secret to the whole scenario when He said, “But wisdom is justified of all her children.”

What this simply means is, don’t listen to your friend’s suggestions, don’t heed your families’ advice, don’t pay attention to anyone that is not in proper authority over you ~ regarding what you do with God’s blessings. The most important thing is to listen to God daily and obey His every command ~ no matter how small and insignificant it might appear to be.  And Jesus said your wisdom of listening to God is compared to children. Notice that children take a little time to raise before you can see how well they turn out.

This means that you might have to put up with some ridicule, be made fun of, or even face outright criticism concerning your management of God’s bountiful blessings.  But did not Jesus get criticized because He allowed Mary to break an alabaster box and pour out expensive ointment upon His feet?  Don’t forget that the person who was criticizing Jesus was Judas, and you know what happened to him. Worst of all, I would surely not want to be the person who toots their own horn to try to control anyone who is receiving God’s bountiful blessings.

By gazowsky

Love Her Like Christ Loves

Over the last month I have been amazed at how kind, gentle and caring Jesus’ love is for me. If in anyway He senses a disagreement even in my thoughts about His plans for me, immediately the plans cease. Believe me this is shocking because everyone I know (including myself) that has any amount of authority is disturbed whenever his or her plans aren’t followed. But Jesus is so kind, gentle and considerate that He quietly, like the Holy Spirit, flies away and leaves me to my own plans if I desire to do them.

As I’ve been continuing to observe this kindness, this wonderful refreshing relationship that I have been discovering with Jesus, this morning I woke up and the Lord said, “Can you love Sandy as I love you?” Wow! The question flabbergasted me because I know in the natural I am completely incapable of loving her that much. But I prayed and said, “Jesus, if You will teach me how to love Sandy like you love me, I’m willing to learn.” Jesus responded very kindly by saying, “Yes, I’ll teach you.”

I was driving late last night (but still feeling perky enough to keep going), and Sister Marilyn, who was traveling to L.A. with us, was asleep beside me in the passenger seat. As I continued down Highway 5, I felt a slight whisper of sleep falling upon me. At that moment a tiny soft hand slipped under my open palm, which was resting on the center console. It was Sandy, who was in the backseat. Without saying a word she gently gripped me and lovingly conveyed,”Stay awake, and drive on, you handsome king of my life!”

All of that just in a touch. Yet Jesus has even more than that in His touch. Hers was the perfect gesture at the perfect moment ~ complete perfection in love. So it is with Christ’s love for us. It is perfection, even in the smallest moments.

Today I am officially enrolled in Jesus’ school, “How To Really Love Your Wife.” Wow!  This is so exciting! I wonder what kind of degree I’ll be receiving and if I can graduate. Praise God, I hope so! I hope you husbands also want to enroll in Jesus’ “Love Your Wife School”. I hear there’s some very private and secret surprises that are Xed out ~ and it’s all fun.

By gazowsky

“The Feel Of Perfection ~ Your Flesh’s Response To The Perfect Will Of God.”

Members of my family waited patiently for the release of the iPhone 6, and then something wonderful happened when I placed the newly manufactured phone in my hand. The smooth finely machined and polished interface surface felt soft and smooth as a newborn baby’s bottom. I knew how hard it had been for Apple to accomplish this manufacturing perfection from reading Jony Ive’s new book, “The Genius Behind Apple’s Greatest New Products.” But of course I am not writing about Apple’s new iPhone, but instead about your flesh’s response to the perfection of God.
 
Just as I felt that warm fuzzy feeling when I held the phone, so it is that I feel that warm fuzzy escalation in my heart when I realize I have been perfectly obedient to the will of God. But today I had to reject a potential relationship because they had attached a string to me concerning my long established friendship. And this potential new relationship had a promise involving large sums of money. But I remembered that Jesus said, “Ye cannot serve God and mammon (riches personified and opposed to God).”
 
Yes, it cost a big sacrifice of potential finances to be perfectly obedient to God, especially on this issue. Yet look at the other side of the coin. Though I lost a major friendship, I could have been connected with somebody whose manipulative strings might have started telling me whom to like and whom not to like. When I woke up this morning I felt the smooth finely polished hand of the Lord in my hand.  Yes, it was that warm fuzzy feeling of exultation of knowing that I had obeyed His perfect will. This feeling of perfection is the result of perfect obedience and desire that welcomes the presence of God. 
 
The new generation of young Christians is learning to admire and desire perfection in every part of their lives. This is the message that I believe God is speaking to young people today.  Their new technologies are removing the clutter and making everything we do more intuitive, easy to understand, and elegant and its process. God has designed the Holy Spirit that operates inside our tummy through our human interface to be so elegant as it operates through intuitive childlike simplicity. It is too bad that religion can clutter and complicate things that God does through us naturally. 
 
For example, the young man Joseph in the Bible went through a long period of imprisonment and came out of it elegantly prepared for leadership.  Even the king’s signet ring of power was upon his finger. The reason Joseph was so luxuriously trained was not from the impact of his environment. Rather, it was his ability to ignore all of the constraints that his environment afforded and focus on simple acts of obedience from the voice and dreams of God.
 
The same filtering of non-Holy Spirit influences must be done by young people today who are being influenced by controlling religious structures. Such structures are designed by well-intended ministers, whose purposes are to raise funds so their structures can keep functioning. The thing that is dangerous about these systems is that they teach young people to numb out or neutralize the voice of God in their spirits. It’s very obvious why they do it.  If you wish to control hundreds of young people man’s way, then you have to make them obedient to man’s program.
 
But if your goal is to have hundreds of young people controlled by the Holy Spirit, then you will teach them to be obedient to the voice of God. The Bible is your personal GPS and safe passage guide.  However, I must warn you that with such power also comes much responsibility. But of course this is where you feel the fine manufactured detail that a person discovers in the life of Godly perfection. Now that’s really cool!  Enjoy the perfection!
By gazowsky

“A Comet Will Usher In 2015 “

I was sitting in the congregation of Dr. Miles in Phoenix, Arizona on Sunday night, listening to the young Evangelist Gershom Sikaala. To emphasize the point in his explanation about what God was doing in the world today, he said, “I really don’t know what God is going to do in 2015.”  After he repeated this statement a few more times, the Lord spoke to me, “Gershom is humble.  And because he was willing to admit he does not know what I’m going to do in 2015, I am going to reveal to Gershom and everyone what is going to happen.”

Then The Lord spoke to me and said, “I will send a new comet to appear in the sky before the end of 2014.  The name given to it and the tail on the end of the comet will be the explanation to My people about what I’m going to do in 2015.”

This was not the first time the Lord had spoken to us through the viewing of a new comet in the sky.  A few years ago the Lord spoke to me about Comet Lovejoy exactly one month before it appeared. This event was very significant for me to understand God’s direction for the body of Christ. It was the first time God had ever spoken to me about something as dramatic as a comet suddenly appearing in the sky.  It made me question myself, “Why would God talk to me about such a major event?”

I promptly announced the upcoming event to my church in San Francisco. All of us were amazed when the prophecy came to pass!  As it turned out, Comet Lovejoy went so close to the sun that it melted into dust and ashes ~ which was symbolic of God purifying the church during this time. 

The prophet Timothy Snodgrass reminded me of something tonight as I was writing the final words of this blog.  It is 10:00 PM, September 19, 2014.  He told me it is important that I mark the day and time that this blog is written so that you know it was prophesied before the comet is seen.

It appears God is again going to use the method of a “Message In A Comet.”  I believe God’s message will be unique and different from the earlier Comet Lovejoy as it unveils God’s secrets and plans for 2015.

By gazowsky

“Shadows Of Celebrity”

A shadow is caused by light falling on an object.  When that light is the glory of God, then the shadow is celebrity. The world cannot understand, comprehend, or even see God’s glory, but they can see the shadow. The shadow can be strong in its fleshly manifestations ~ like wealth, fame, power, innovation ~ the list is endless. The anointing is the substance of the shadow, and in it you realize all the power and blessing of God.
 
Don’t forget that it is written, “For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance.” In other words, a person may obtain the shadow of celebrity ~ which will give abundant wealth, fame, and power throughout their natural life, but if they lose the glory, which is the literal presence of God Himself, the door is left open for sorrow.  But the word of God says, “The blessing of the Lord, it maketh rich, and He addeth no sorrow with it.”  So there is a shadow equation that exists here, and the principle and only critical factor is the “Lord.”  
 
The reason this equation is a shadow is because it is not obvious, that if you take the Lord out of the picture then sorrow becomes a major player.  This is because the shadow of celebrity has power itself.  And, if we’re not careful, the power of the shadow can become the main focus of our attention.  Remember, the shadow itself has got incredible power to reproduce, to bless, and to carry out a bright beautiful future.  But this future also has the possibility for much sorrow.
 
A good example of what I am talking about is King Saul.  He was nobody, from the smallest tribe of Benjamin, and also did nothing to get celebrity status. Suddenly he is anointed by the prophet Samuel, the light of God’s glory shined upon his life, and he developed the shadow of celebrity.  In his shadow were kingly power, wealth, strength, and an assortment of regal wisdom. But the thing King Saul did not calculate was that he was beginning to focus on the shadow and no longer kept looking at the source of the shadow, which was God’s favor (through the prophet Samuel) upon his life.
 
When prophet Samuel makes what King Saul thinks are obvious mistakes, like being late to one of their meetings, he just goes and takes control of the situation.  Yet in that little action Saul loses the spotlight of God’s glory on his life, and suddenly the shadow has nothing left to generate it.  The amazing thing is, God never removed the shadow because, like we said earlier, the gifts and callings of God are without repentance.  The shadow remained with him throughout his life.  But when Saul died all of the glory of his house perished with it, including that of his children. The real key is to not focus on the shadow, but to keep looking at who is making the shadow. It is the light of God’s glory.
 
Think about this for a few moments.  Meditate upon the occasions when your passion was extreme.  You also experienced extreme attention (even celebrity status itself).  That is what shined upon you and made you attractive.  If you can discover the source of the presence of God and never lose that precious essence, you will discover that diamond mine and that gold lode that every successful, powerful, and wealthy person is looking for.  Look out, because you’re about to become a celebrity!
By gazowsky

Love Her Like Christ Loves

Screen shot 2014-09-06 at 12.55.28 PMOver the last month I have been amazed at how kind, gentle and caring Jesus’ love is for me. If in anyway He senses a disagreement even in my thoughts about His plans for me, immediately the plans cease. Believe me this is shocking because everyone I know (including myself) that has any amount of authority is disturbed whenever his or her plans aren’t followed. But Jesus is so kind, gentle and considerate that He quietly, like the Holy Spirit, flies away and leaves me to my own plans if I desire to do them.
As I’ve been continuing to observe this kindness, this wonderful refreshing relationship that I have been discovering with Jesus, this morning I woke up and the Lord said, “Can you love Sandy as I love you?” Wow! The question flabbergasted me because I know in the natural I am completely incapable of loving her that much. But I prayed and said, “Jesus, if You will teach me how to love Sandy like you love me, I’m willing to learn.” Jesus responded very kindly by saying, “Yes, I’ll teach you.”
I was driving late last night (but still feeling perky enough to keep going), and Sister Marilyn, who was traveling to L.A. with us, was asleep beside me in the passenger seat. As I continued down Highway 5, I felt a slight whisper of sleep falling upon me. At that moment a tiny soft hand slipped under my open palm, which was resting on the center console. It was Sandy, who was in the backseat. Without saying a word she gently gripped me and lovingly conveyed, “Stay awake, and drive on, you handsome king of my life!”
All of that just in a touch. Yet Jesus has even more than that in His touch. Hers was the perfect gesture at the perfect moment ~ complete perfection in love. So it is with Christ’s love for us. It is perfection, even in the smallest moments.
Today I am officially enrolled in Jesus’ school, “How To Really Love Your Wife.” Wow!  This is so exciting! I wonder what kind of degree I’ll be receiving and if I can graduate. Praise God, I hope so! I hope you husbands also want to enroll in Jesus’ “Love Your Wife School”. I hear there’s some very private and secret surprises that are Xed out ~ and it’s all fun.

By gazowsky

“An Open Letter To The Prophet Timothy Snodgrass”

Timothy:

Good morning! After having woken up and started my morning prayer, I thought I would write you this letter.

I first would like to take time to thank you personally for coming to San Francisco when it felt like we were at the lowest point any church in history was ever at. You never complained about the offerings you received, about the lack of attendance, or even sometimes our inability to understand what you were prophesying about. Instead, you just came kept giving the word of God to us no matter how ridiculous and wonderful that word might’ve sounded.

Now those great words of God are coming to pass before our eyes! Each day my personal life experience is full of more pleasure than the previous one. Here is just one example to explain how wonderful things are for me. I recently had my eyes professionally examined and new glasses fitted for me. I had one pair of the new glasses for about a week when this last Tuesday night, Sunny, Gershom, and I were driving back from Los Angeles on Highway 5 after having booked a prophetic conference (which is to be held on October 27, 2014, at the California Grand Hotel at Disneyland).

While we are driving on a lonely stretch of highway, I suddenly had to go to the bathroom. We drove for a few minutes looking for a gas station, but like I said, it was a lonely stretch of highway. I had to go so badly I asked my son to take the next exit and had him pull over on a deserted roadway. I walked out to the middle of a field and went to the bathroom (as it was so dark no one could see me). I then looked up to the sky with my new glasses and to my amazement I could clearly see vast areas of the millions of dots of stars in the massive Milky Way over my head.

As I stood there alone in the field I was in awe because I had never seen such majesty before. My vision had been so fuzzy that I didn’t know what I had been missing! My new glasses made everything so clear that I could see the tiniest pinpoint lights of stars. Suddenly I was a little boy, and for 20 minutes I ran around the field in the chilly night as I studied the glorious night sky. It was stunning how beautiful and wonderful it was! I wanted to travel into outer space immediately! I hadn’t comprehended how much there was up there waiting for us.

As you might’ve imagined, Gershom and Sunny just laughed at me when I told them my experience. But Timothy, it was so wonderful that Jesus has opened my eyes. I felt like a blind Bartimaeus who said, “I can see! I can see! I can see!!” But for me the story even got more amazing because yesterday, which was Wednesday, we took my mother to the eye doctor to see about her eyes getting operated on.

The doctor explained something to me that literally sent chill bumps down my back. He said that the cataracts in her eyes had made her vision so fuzzy that she could not see people’s faces clear enough to see who they were and it had caused her to shrink back into a dark world. He then told us to look closely at my mother.

It was then we noticed that she never looked right at somebody. So many times she did not enter into a conversation because she felt like she was in another world and could not see what was going on in our world. I realized that when we give her the operation her eyes would suddenly be opened, she would see everything more clearly and begin to communicate to us so much more. Yesterday we saw my mother walking to the kitchen. She was holding onto the counter as she tried to get around the house on her own without a wheelchair or anybody’s help.

Through all of this I realized that God is beginning to open up everybody’s eyes and we will all see the glory of God. The things that you, Timothy, have prophesied about are not only coming to pass, but our eyes are being opened so we can see the bright and beautiful tomorrow that God has for all of us! I wish to thank you again for coming to San Francisco, for becoming my brother, praying for us, for allowing such a wonderful family to also be our friends, for being patient, and most of all for carrying the word of God to our beautiful city.

Thanks,

Your brother in Christ, and brother in the flesh, and fellow goofy friend,

 Richard Gazowsky

“Humility Of Mind ~ The Shadows Of Spice, The Crushing Of Ego”

Acts 20:19

“Serving the Lord with all humility of mind, and with many tears, and temptations, which befell me by the lying in wait of the Jews.” KJV

 The Scripture hit me like a ton of bricks in the face. I have told you, all of my friends, that I would be honest with you and I would tell you exactly what God is doing behind the scenes.  So I want to be honest with you in this blog. This Friday, which is the day that this blog is to be emailed out, I woke up early and the Lord told me I was narcissistic.

For some of you this might’ve been discouraging, and for others even hurtful, but for the type of person with my ego it was actually refreshing. As most of you know, my ego is extremely strong. But that’s one reason I’ve been able to stay on the vision of the movie industry for so long and not waver concerning the promise God gave me. But there’s another side to this coin.  A strong ego can also make you narcissistic.

Over the last week God has been crushing like a flower, and the sweet smell of humility has been rising up my spirit. But to be honest, I had no clue it was happening to me personally. The only way I could see it or intellectually recognize it was by what other people said about me, and my first reaction was, “What are they talking about?”  That’s because humility was not something I was used to having. So this morning, when the Lord told me I was narcissistic, the revelation really slammed me in the face!

Yet my response was to start laughing, crying, and rejoicing, because I finally saw what my problem was. When I was born my mother, Marilyn Gazowsky, named me “Richard.” I once looked up that name in the dictionary and found out it means: “to rule hard; kingship; lionhearted” ~ examples of what I’d been like because I naturally rule hard, want to control things, and to lead people like I think a king would.  But obviously these personality traits are narcissistic in nature. This was the thing that God has been trying to crush out of me, and it is still not all gone.  But praise God I now can recognize it ~ which means I can help the rest of it leave.

Now listen. To those who are reading this blog I realize I am being extremely vulnerable in a public forum like this, and some people might even want to take advantage of me.  But don’t worry about Richard.  I am willing to pay the price to please Jesus, to be His servant, and to have His presence upon me.  Oh how I love His presence!

History tells us of so many kings who faced the decision of choosing humility over self-ego and inflated praise.  Maybe for all of us to learn humility is the way to go. Then when you are home you can dance like a child and enjoy every moment of your life. It will mean a life not filled with shadows but with a sweet-smelling aroma ~ like the sandalwood scent of one of the Tom Ford Essence perfumes. It is the crushing of the ego…

By gazowsky