Over the last month I have been amazed at how kind, gentle and caring Jesus’ love is for me. If in anyway He senses a disagreement even in my thoughts about His plans for me, immediately the plans cease. Believe me this is shocking because everyone I know (including myself) that has any amount of authority is disturbed whenever his or her plans aren’t followed. But Jesus is so kind, gentle and considerate that He quietly, like the Holy Spirit, flies away and leaves me to my own plans if I desire to do them.
As I’ve been continuing to observe this kindness, this wonderful refreshing relationship that I have been discovering with Jesus, this morning I woke up and the Lord said, “Can you love Sandy as I love you?” Wow! The question flabbergasted me because I know in the natural I am completely incapable of loving her that much. But I prayed and said, “Jesus, if You will teach me how to love Sandy like you love me, I’m willing to learn.” Jesus responded very kindly by saying, “Yes, I’ll teach you.”
I was driving late last night (but still feeling perky enough to keep going), and Sister Marilyn, who was traveling to L.A. with us, was asleep beside me in the passenger seat. As I continued down Highway 5, I felt a slight whisper of sleep falling upon me. At that moment a tiny soft hand slipped under my open palm, which was resting on the center console. It was Sandy, who was in the backseat. Without saying a word she gently gripped me and lovingly conveyed, “Stay awake, and drive on, you handsome king of my life!”
All of that just in a touch. Yet Jesus has even more than that in His touch. Hers was the perfect gesture at the perfect moment ~ complete perfection in love. So it is with Christ’s love for us. It is perfection, even in the smallest moments.
Today I am officially enrolled in Jesus’ school, “How To Really Love Your Wife.” Wow! This is so exciting! I wonder what kind of degree I’ll be receiving and if I can graduate. Praise God, I hope so! I hope you husbands also want to enroll in Jesus’ “Love Your Wife School”. I hear there’s some very private and secret surprises that are Xed out ~ and it’s all fun.
Good morning! After having woken up and started my morning prayer, I thought I would write you this letter.
I first would like to take time to thank you personally for coming to San Francisco when it felt like we were at the lowest point any church in history was ever at. You never complained about the offerings you received, about the lack of attendance, or even sometimes our inability to understand what you were prophesying about. Instead, you just came kept giving the word of God to us no matter how ridiculous and wonderful that word might’ve sounded.
Now those great words of God are coming to pass before our eyes! Each day my personal life experience is full of more pleasure than the previous one. Here is just one example to explain how wonderful things are for me. I recently had my eyes professionally examined and new glasses fitted for me. I had one pair of the new glasses for about a week when this last Tuesday night, Sunny, Gershom, and I were driving back from Los Angeles on Highway 5 after having booked a prophetic conference (which is to be held on October 27, 2014, at the California Grand Hotel at Disneyland).
While we are driving on a lonely stretch of highway, I suddenly had to go to the bathroom. We drove for a few minutes looking for a gas station, but like I said, it was a lonely stretch of highway. I had to go so badly I asked my son to take the next exit and had him pull over on a deserted roadway. I walked out to the middle of a field and went to the bathroom (as it was so dark no one could see me). I then looked up to the sky with my new glasses and to my amazement I could clearly see vast areas of the millions of dots of stars in the massive Milky Way over my head.
As I stood there alone in the field I was in awe because I had never seen such majesty before. My vision had been so fuzzy that I didn’t know what I had been missing! My new glasses made everything so clear that I could see the tiniest pinpoint lights of stars. Suddenly I was a little boy, and for 20 minutes I ran around the field in the chilly night as I studied the glorious night sky. It was stunning how beautiful and wonderful it was! I wanted to travel into outer space immediately! I hadn’t comprehended how much there was up there waiting for us.
As you might’ve imagined, Gershom and Sunny just laughed at me when I told them my experience. But Timothy, it was so wonderful that Jesus has opened my eyes. I felt like a blind Bartimaeus who said, “I can see! I can see! I can see!!” But for me the story even got more amazing because yesterday, which was Wednesday, we took my mother to the eye doctor to see about her eyes getting operated on.
The doctor explained something to me that literally sent chill bumps down my back. He said that the cataracts in her eyes had made her vision so fuzzy that she could not see people’s faces clear enough to see who they were and it had caused her to shrink back into a dark world. He then told us to look closely at my mother.
It was then we noticed that she never looked right at somebody. So many times she did not enter into a conversation because she felt like she was in another world and could not see what was going on in our world. I realized that when we give her the operation her eyes would suddenly be opened, she would see everything more clearly and begin to communicate to us so much more. Yesterday we saw my mother walking to the kitchen. She was holding onto the counter as she tried to get around the house on her own without a wheelchair or anybody’s help.
Through all of this I realized that God is beginning to open up everybody’s eyes and we will all see the glory of God. The things that you, Timothy, have prophesied about are not only coming to pass, but our eyes are being opened so we can see the bright and beautiful tomorrow that God has for all of us! I wish to thank you again for coming to San Francisco, for becoming my brother, praying for us, for allowing such a wonderful family to also be our friends, for being patient, and most of all for carrying the word of God to our beautiful city.
Your brother in Christ, and brother in the flesh, and fellow goofy friend,
“Serving the Lord with all humility of mind, and with many tears, and temptations, which befell me by the lying in wait of the Jews.” KJV
The Scripture hit me like a ton of bricks in the face. I have told you, all of my friends, that I would be honest with you and I would tell you exactly what God is doing behind the scenes. So I want to be honest with you in this blog. This Friday, which is the day that this blog is to be emailed out, I woke up early and the Lord told me I was narcissistic.
For some of you this might’ve been discouraging, and for others even hurtful, but for the type of person with my ego it was actually refreshing. As most of you know, my ego is extremely strong. But that’s one reason I’ve been able to stay on the vision of the movie industry for so long and not waver concerning the promise God gave me. But there’s another side to this coin. A strong ego can also make you narcissistic.
Over the last week God has been crushing like a flower, and the sweet smell of humility has been rising up my spirit. But to be honest, I had no clue it was happening to me personally. The only way I could see it or intellectually recognize it was by what other people said about me, and my first reaction was, “What are they talking about?” That’s because humility was not something I was used to having. So this morning, when the Lord told me I was narcissistic, the revelation really slammed me in the face!
Yet my response was to start laughing, crying, and rejoicing, because I finally saw what my problem was. When I was born my mother, Marilyn Gazowsky, named me “Richard.” I once looked up that name in the dictionary and found out it means: “to rule hard; kingship; lionhearted” ~ examples of what I’d been like because I naturally rule hard, want to control things, and to lead people like I think a king would. But obviously these personality traits are narcissistic in nature. This was the thing that God has been trying to crush out of me, and it is still not all gone. But praise God I now can recognize it ~ which means I can help the rest of it leave.
Now listen. To those who are reading this blog I realize I am being extremely vulnerable in a public forum like this, and some people might even want to take advantage of me. But don’t worry about Richard. I am willing to pay the price to please Jesus, to be His servant, and to have His presence upon me. Oh how I love His presence!
History tells us of so many kings who faced the decision of choosing humility over self-ego and inflated praise. Maybe for all of us to learn humility is the way to go. Then when you are home you can dance like a child and enjoy every moment of your life. It will mean a life not filled with shadows but with a sweet-smelling aroma ~ like the sandalwood scent of one of the Tom Ford Essence perfumes. It is the crushing of the ego…
Everything in my life is being filled with richness: my relationship with Sandy, with my children, with the saints in the church, with the building, with my work, and with my inventions. The most stunning of all is my eyesight, which has been in the hands of the Lord by Him leading me to an eye doctor who supplied me with a new pair of prescription glasses. Everything that was clogged is clearer, sharper, more wonderful, enjoyable and full of laughter and fun. Now this is what I call revival!
Back to the Iron Chef meal. With everything in my life being so enhanced, I was surprised to discover that God was going to enrich something that I had never even considered necessary. And that was my taste buds. Yes, those little things in my mouth that are connected with my smelling ability. This surprise happened to me as Peggy Cole and my family were about to enjoy a custom-designed outstanding five-course meal. This well-known chef was about to take me into the wonders of exquisite culinary dining.
After we finished the first course, the waiter immediately asked for our opinions of the dish. I had been on a strict regiment of not eating salt in my food and found that my taste buds had really become alive to any food that had incredible seasoning yet was still salt-less. Our first course included steak tartar, which really sparkled in my palate and I couldn’t wait to tell the chef how luscious and interesting his dish was. So when they asked me for my opinion I said, “When I get to heaven and they serve us the marriage supper of the Lamb, I’m going to ask Jesus that the chef be allowed to prepare this dish because it is that phenomenal!”
The successive dishes were climbing an extravagant staircase to heaven and I was ever so prepared for the fourth course. They brought forth a dish that included ox tail that had been cooked four different ways and rolled into a delicately prepared cake roll. When I bit into the exquisite entrée, it was so savory that it exploded with incredible flavors and symphonically scrumptious notes that danced on my palate and excited a certain vision center in my brain that had never been turned on before.
I knew that smells can really influence your memory, but this was something I had never experienced before. It was an exciting taste that caused a fun explosion of memory and visions. When the waiter again came to the table to ask for my opinion I replied, “When my palate bit into the ox tail roll, it exploded with notes and tones that invoked such memories that I envisioned myself on a grassy hillside grabbing the tail of a fleeing ox and throwing him into a fire to be cooked. As a result, sparks from the fire flew up into the sky and they became one with the stars.”
I was about to continue with my explanation but everyone at the table drowned me out with their laughter. For a moment I felt silly for having such a grandiose vision. The thing that amazed me was I hadn’t even shared with them the complete vision I had really seen. A few minutes later I tried sharing it again but I just received the same bemused laughter. So maybe now that I’ve got your attention with this blog, I’ll share with you the whole vision that God gave me as I bit into the ox tail roll.
The ox tail vision:
The sparks flying in the air from the fire resulted in a heavenly vision of stars that merged into the sparks. In the vision I was traveling through a constellation of stars that appeared to be in the shape of a huge ox, and each star was a palate of incredible notes of flavor. All of us landed on a planet in the star system that was inhabited with incredible animals, and we were dressed in beautiful evening attire. We literally spent an entire universe of time eating and feasting from planet to planet on the incredible the delights that our God had provided in the ox tail constellation of stars.
Wow! The vision was so wonderful I tried a third time to relate it to those at the table. But again they jovially said, “Richard, please don’t go on again with your description.” But the ox tail stars and constellation were the best part of the vision because I had seen us feasting 40 years on each planet. Just think how fun the incredible explosion of flavors would be in God’s wonderful universe.
The fantastic whirlwind of pleasure continued into Monday the next day. I was overwhelmed by the wonder of every rich flavor, sight, desire, and pleasure that God was bringing to us as a church family. Suddenly, about 11:40 in the morning, when I had stopped in front of the marquee of “A Place To Meet Jesus”, the Lord spoke to me, “Richard, am I going too fast?” I started laughing out loud. I then replied, “Not yet.”
I continued to laugh at what the Lord had said to me for the rest of the day…
When the prophet Timothy Snodgrass spoke to me at brunch on Sunday, July 27, 2014, he said something to my family in his childlike demeanor, “The whirlwind is touching down today.” Thirty minutes later I walked to the parking lot of the restaurant and I was symbolically hit by a gust of wind, when a paper was handed to me that metaphorically knocked me off my feet and fulfilled a 19-year-old promise God had made to me.
When God does an action that is so wonderful it instantly launches my mind into intelligent action, at least that is what I think it does. In reality it is just my mind on a self-indulgent ego journey. This is my quandary. God’s simple actions are so wonderful that they set off a type of nuclear fission of mental reaction in a highly educated person’s mind. No wonder a fool, “though he be a wayfaring man, shall not error there in.” The amazing thing that has truly stunned me is that the whirlwind has continued, and increased in velocity every day for the last two weeks.
I must be honest that all this has not overwhelmed me, but has made me laugh like a little kid. I think the reason for this is that the Lord told me years ago, when I was praying in the prayer room at Treasure Island in San Francisco, that His river was made for me, just my size. At that time I was afraid I could not navigate God’s majestic plan for my life. This was when I begin to discover what a gentlemen God actually is ~ so kind, so considerate and forgiving.
I must confess to you that my quandary is the struggle of how my intellectually reasoning mind must shut down, quit calculating, and let the Holy Spirit do the planning, protecting, and crossing every “t” and dotting every “i”. Every day I find myself crying to the Lord for the strength to shut my mind down, and just think like a little child so I can follow each day His perfect will. What a war I am having with myself, and the battleground is my mind!
When I began pastoring this church I promised you, my congregation, I would be honest about things that happened in the background of leadership. Well, this is it, this is the truth, this is my struggle. Wait a minute! Don’t you dare feel sorry for me. As long as I turn my intellectual reasoning off, I’m like a little six-year-old at his first day in Disneyland. This could be why the apostle Paul said his struggle was to, “Serve the Lord with all humility of mind.” And what a struggle it is…
by Richard Gazowsky
The prophet Timothy Snodgrass told my family and I that on Sunday, July 27, 2014 ~ the whirlwind of God officially hit San Francisco. On Tuesdaymorning of the same week my lovely daughter Rocki Starr and I were having breakfast at a local restaurant, “Squat And Gobble.” We were laughing and giggling about the wonderful adventure that was occurring in the whirlwind of God’s word that was being fulfilled around us hourly and seemingly almost every second. Then, in the middle of a story I was excitedly sharing, Rocki said, “Quiet! Listen, Dad, that’s Imogen Heap’s song playing in the restaurant.” As I listened to the melodic harmony I recognized the hit song “Hide And Seek”:
“Where are we?…” I instantly saw a vision of billions of the youth under the age of 18 with their eyes full of awe, wondering. “What’s next?” “What the hell is going on?…” To the youth of the world, political leadership, church leadership, business leadership ~ is like a racing train ready to crash head on, and the victims will be the families of the world. “The dust has only just begun to form…” Every system of saving the world has failed miserably and dust upon these man-made systems is forming now. “Crop circles in the carpet…” Wow! I looked at Rocky when I heard those words, because the whirlwind that we were experiencing was literally forming crop-like circles in the carpet all around us. What an incredible futuristic phenomenon about God’s change. “Sinking, feeling…” The question arises in everyone’s mind, “Is this the thing that just failed us before?”
“Spin me round again and rub my eyes, this can’t be happening…” What an incredibly clear explanation of God’s holy whirlwind that is now occurring in the city of San Francisco. God spoke to me and said, “Do not put your hands in the whirlwind or try to touch what God is doing, because it’s dangerous, it will cut your hands off!” “When busy streets a mess with people would, stop to hold, their heads heavy…” This is such a stark view of the complete mass of society and it’s feeling about heavy heads that are weighted with thoughts that are too much for them to figure out.
“Hide and seek…” This is the hook of the song. In a simple phrase it describes the great search of mankind. My close friend, Tommy Tenney, once wrote a book called “God Seekers.” So clearly his book masterly describes the heart-wrenching search of man for God, and even refers to his own personal search for Him and His presence. I too have gone on this “hide and seek” journey trying to find God. “Trains and sewing machines…” Isaiah said that he saw His train fill the temple.
A king’s “train” was when he sewed together all the flags of the kingdoms he conquered. Jesus is now sewing His trains together, which are Earth’s kingdoms, and then He will become the conquering King of Kings and Lord of Lords of all the earth. “All those years, they were here first…” In poetic metaphor we see a picture of all of the angels in heaven joining the kingdoms of Earth in bowing to the King of Kings and Lord of lords.
“Oily marks appear on walls where pleasure moments hung…” When I heard this line for the first time I saw a wall where the dust showed marks where pictures used to hang. All of those blank spots, or pleasure moments from the past, were crying out for something unseen to appear in the future. “Before the takeover, the sweeping intensity of this still life…” The kingdoms of this world are about to be taken over by the kingdoms of our Lord and Christ. This is truly the New Renaissance. The game of hide and seek is over. Jesus is here! I am Pastor Richard and I welcome you to the New Renaissance!
About 15 years ago, the late youth pastor John Francis had the amazing spiritual experience of seeing whirlwinds at our church on Ocean Avenue. When he first told me of his vision, it sounded so violent, I thought it was a warning of destruction coming. As the years progressed, more and more people saw a similar visions of whirlwinds. None of them were destructive, and the people who had the prophetic visions were never harmed by them. At this point, we began to realize the whirlwinds were a move of God. The vision continued so consistently in its message, that eventually the church’s logo became the whirlwind. As a pastor, I wanted to honor God and the message that he was sending to us. But now, I giggle at how hard the Lord must have laughed at my efforts to make something so phenomenal happen.
A few weeks ago, the Lord spoke to me and said, “Okay Richard, the whirlwind is here. Don’t put your hands into it, because it will cut your hands off.” A vision took me the inside of a spinning whirlwind; sharp blades protruded from out of the spinning funnel that indeed threatened to cut off anything close. I became even more excited as I realized I was beholding the inner move of God, and how dangerous that position would be. I reminded myself, “Don’t touch it, don’t touch anything.”
At this point I believe that San Francisco is being realigned by the Holy Spirit. Just as in major open heart surgery, only the surgeon’s hand should be allowed to touch anything. Jesus Christ must direct your path; only the Lord can perform the task at hand. I have been reminded again to let go of my personal will; every little, tiny speck of self-will will completely be burned in the fire of God. It’s His holy whirlwind of fire.
By Richard Gazowsky
There are times in life when momentous things happen which are so earth-shaking it permanently changes your life forever. This week has been one of the only times I’ve ever had climatic events occur in such swift succession.
Let me now tell you about the reality of a move of God. Last Friday night, Gershom Sikaala ministered, and the glory of God was so strong through Grace Williams’ worship, and Gershom’s prophetic word, that I was slain in the spirit on the floor. I felt waves of God’s glory cleansing the inner parts of my spirit. While I lay there, I was reminded of a word, 28 years ago, when Jesus told me, “Richard, I will give you money on the day you lose weight.” This word was so simple and powerful, that I tried to jump ahead of God, and went on over 100 diets. I gained weight until I was 310 pounds of pure fat.
Years later, through a complex series of visits to the hospital, family intercession, and obedience to God, the Lord whittled me down to 250 pounds. The prophetess Joy, in Singapore, had prophesied to me three years prior and said, “You will go down to 250 pounds and stay there until the Lord is ready to release it all to you.” I know it sounds funny, that I’m talking about my belly and the will of God, but it’s the only way I can share with you how profound this last week has been to me and the church that I pastor, A Place To Meet Jesus.
As I continued to lay on the floor I heard Gershom prophesying, “The Lord is changing you on the inside. This is why it is so hard for you to change your eating habits. Your flesh has locked into its old way of eating. It does not want to learn anything different. But now, the power of God is upon you, and He is cleansing you on the inside. Everything from your previous habit is washed clean. Now God is giving you a chance to learn how to eat anew. Make sure you develop an eating habit which is glorious to the Lord.”
After hearing these words, I realized that the Lord had changed me. The next day I wasn’t hungry at all. I could’ve fasted all day and had no desire to touch food. But I realized that God was changing me and and that I needed to take advantage of this change. That same morning, Sandy offered me an incredible breakfast, and I heard the Lord say, “Begin your new life.” I ate only one egg, a half piece of toast, and was full. I was shocked! And it continued like this for days! By Monday night, I had lost six pounds! The weight just continues to roll off my body.
God is not done with me. And He’s definitely not done with the church. On Sunday morning, Timothy Snodgrass prophesied that an unusual numerical miracle was to occur at midnight, on 7/14/14. That’s five 7’s in a row. The number 7 represents God’s perfect number, and the number 5 represents His grace. This moment was so critical that satan tried to keep prophet Timothy away from the evening service. But Gershom, under the anointing of God, started prophesying at about 9:30pm, and went on thundering until 12 midnight! At 20 minutes until midnight, God’s glory filled the sanctuary so overwhelmingly, that almost the entire congregation was slain in the spirit on the floor! Personally, I was so drunk in the Spirit that my mouth hung open, and my arms swung like a drowning maniac, losing it in overwhelming joy! In a mix of absurdly ridiculous positions, I saw a vision of Jesus Christ walking through the body. Gershom, not far away, tried to calm everyone down so they didn’t explode! Later, I discovered that multiple people saw the same vision of Jesus that I was honored to see; we giggled as we compared notes from the night!
This glory continued into Monday. I felt the Lord tell me to drive Gershom to his appointment in Fresno, where they had heard about the glory falling in San Francisco. They asked Gershom to come to an office building, and share what God had done. We arrived at 8pm, and Gershom began to share what the Lord was doing in our city. Right then, the glory of the Lord began to fall upon the people. At first it was only 15 people; then it grew to 50. By 11pm, every single person was on the floor, and the glory of God was rolling through, just as He had done at A Place To Meet Jesus. Gershom’s eyes began to play tricks on him, and things became out of focus. He realized that a cloud of glory was appearing, and everyone in the audience began to run toward the cloud. When they gathered in, the power of God knocked them to the floor! I was incredibly embarrassed, because as I was slain, just a few feet from me was the pastor’s wife! My British grandmother, Adeline Burrows, had always instructed me to behave myself when I’m a guest in someone else’s house. And here I was, drunk in the Spirit on the floor!
I am happy to say, when I talked with the pastor’s wife sometime later, she was very gracious, and said she was happy that we were partying with the Lord together! But that is not the end of the story…
The next day, through a series of events, I drove Gershom & Pastor Antonio down to Southern California. On highway 99, I was driving 70 miles per hour, when suddenly the Lord entered the car. Gershom began prophesying, “We are in the days that are greater than Kathryn Kuhlman, George Whitman, & Smith Wigglesworth. We are in days that are greater than all of the days of the past. I see a picture of an angel writing with a feathered pen in His hand; there will be history makers, people that are greater than these former generals of God. God is raising new generals that will do even greater things.” He then saw the angel continue to write a new list of history makers.
Gershom continued with these words, “God is doing something greater than Azusa Street, that carries the move of God and will not be stopped. These are the days we are living in now. The spirit of the Lord is moving in a way we cannot understand, because we are so locked in the old way of doing things.”
I continued to drive, as a whirlwind appeared in the field next to the car, spinning up into the sky. Gershom was holding two phones in his hand. On one phone my daughters, Misty and Rocki, began to prophesy that Antonio was going to Egypt! On the other line was Pastor Jeff Watson from Las Vegas, who also had a prophetic word. I felt the Lord take control of the car, and let my hands off of the steering wheel. At this moment, Pastor Antonio and Sandy became worried, and wondered what was going to happen. Gershom said, “Don’t worry, we are going to be translated to the studio.”
As I am dictating this blog, our car sits in front of the studio. Gershom and Antonio are entering a major Arabic television station, which serves as the number one Christian station in Egypt. No one knew this beforehand! No one knew this destiny was on us today. In the midst of all of this glory, I, Pastor Richard Gazowsky, have only one thought in my mind. Can I just cuddle with you, Lord Jesus?
Wednesday and Thursday July 16th-17th
Join us at A Place to Meet Jesus as we worship and enter into the presence of the Holy Spirit with Pastor Richard Gazowsky, Prophet Timothy Snodgrass, and Minister Gershom Sikaala. Special worship music by Jacquie Bahou.
Friday July 18th
Friday Night Youth Night: All teens and youth are encouraged to join us for fellowship and fun.
Youth Pastor Sunny Gazowsky
Saturday and Sunday July 19-20
Richard and Sandy Gazowsky